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My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature,and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, four years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a
relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

“Why?” he asked, shocked. “I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!” I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.

My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can’t even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him?

And finally he asked me:” What can I do to change your mind?” Somebody said it right, it’s hard to change a person’s personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : “Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let’s say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?”

He said :” I will give you your answer tomorrow….” My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes….
My dear,

“I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reasons further..”

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

“When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your “good friend” approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by
infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand… and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face…

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do… I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. “

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting… and as I continue on reading…

“Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk…

I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread….

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone…

That’s life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of
excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands… and that’s our life… Love, not words win arguments

Anonymous

 

Currently listening to: Your Universe by Rico Blanco
Currently feeling: lethargic
Posted by yougottaloveit on November 9, 2008 at 05:12 AM | Add a Comment
  • Hugs are even better than chocolate.
  • There's no such thing as too many kisses.
  • One good cuddle can change a grumpy day.
  • Love is supposed to wear out your fur a little.
  • It's okay to let your inside stuffing show now and then.
  • Listening is as important as talking.
  • Someone's got to keep their eyes open all the time.
  • It's never too late to have a happy childhood.
  • Everyone needs someone to hold onto.
  • There's no friend like an old friend.

-Lulu Canard


Currently feeling: hopeful
Posted by yougottaloveit on January 2, 2008 at 09:17 AM | Add a Comment

tapos  na ba? o mag uumpisa palang?

masakit na ang tiyan ko kaka-kain, ang mga ibang tao rin kaya ay may pagkain ngayong bagong taon?

paano mo alam, pag alam mo na?

nakakabilib at kahanga-hanga ang mga taong nagtatrabaho parin habang pasko/ bagong taon. *sa mga security guards ng malls, waiter/ waitress, at sa lahat saludo ako sa inyo*

iba kaba o tulad ka lang ng iba?

hindi ba't ang bago'y siya ring nagiging luma?

Saan ka mag-uumpisa kung hindi mo alam kung na-saan ka?

 

... to be continued.

Currently reading: readings for chinese lit
Currently feeling: blank
Posted by yougottaloveit on January 1, 2008 at 03:56 AM | Add a Comment

"Passenger Seat"

I look at her and have to smile
As we go driving for a while
Her hair blowing in the open window of my car
And as we go the traffic lights
Watch them glimmer in her eyes
In the darkness of the evening

And I've got all that I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

We stop to get something to drink
My mind clouds and I can't think
Scared to death to say i love her
Then a moon peeks from the clouds
Hear my heart that beats so loud
Try to tell her simply

That I've got all the I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

Oh and I've got all the I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

Oh and I know this love grow

Oh I've got all the I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

And I've got all that I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

And I've got all that I need
Right here in the passenger seat
Oh and I can't keep my eyes on the road
Knowing that she's inches from me

And I've got all that I need
Right here in the passenger seat

 

*i have apprehensions about being in the passenger seat... i guess, i'm really just used to driving my own car...*

Currently feeling: lethargic
Posted by yougottaloveit on October 23, 2007 at 06:53 AM | Add a Comment

I want to go to med school (though mga 70% palang) Why? I don't know. I can't seem to find my passion. I'm already in my final year of college and here i am... still LOST. I've always had a thing for biology- it doesn't bore me at all. I get amazed by the workings of tiny cells and everything else that makes the most complex living thing alive (man) function. Fart, im so confused. I have a thing for finance and HR, but I am definitely more interested in biology as compared to numbers and stuff. I am graduating... I don't know where to go honestly. I need a sign. I'm going to take the NMAT this december- just felt like doing so- baka kc sign na un if ever pumasa ako diba? but still...

I remember reading from lance's blog how we are limited by constraints around us- I need to work immediately after college in order to earn for myself and my family - I definitely cannot afford to spend more time and money for school; lalo na siguro med school. - They don't really recommend taking med. Even the director of cardinal santos medical center told me it would be a waste to take med. hay. - I am the first grandchild and I am expected to be the example for my cousins- I want to make my grandparents and my parents proud - I want to be able to do what I love/ love what i do.

I love bio, finance, consulting, being around people... there are a lot of things, a lot of ways, a lot of paths to take- but i can't seem to know where to go... where i should go... where i want to go. I have always taken risks... I have always done my very best. Sometimes I do fall short, but I still do my best anyway. But NOW... I am afraid to fail more than ever... I cannot afford to fail.

This reminds me of my reply to a friend: " You are great, just allow yourself to be."

How? When it comes to my life, my choices... I've got so many questions. I guess, similar to what we learn in philo- i'm not really asking for a direct and precise answer... i just need to see, more or less, where God is leading me.

Currently reading: the Pilgrimage
Currently feeling: confused
Posted by yougottaloveit on April 4, 2007 at 11:49 PM | 4 comments
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